Today’s Stream of Consciousness prompt from Fadra is deep. It was prompted by a session at Blissdom. And if I’m being honest, I’ll say that I’m extremely jealous of everyone who has been at Blissdom this weekend. I VOW right here and now that I will be going next year.
From a session, Fadra’s prompt was born.
Today’s (Optional) Writing Prompt: Define the season of your life at this very moment.
Five minutes on the clock — and go!“To every thing (turn, turn, turn) there is a season (turn, turn, turn) and a time to every purpose under heaven.” ~~The Byrds
If I had to define the season of life that I’m in, in 5 minutes or less, I would say that I’m in a purgatory of sorts.
I still feel like I’m 25. Though my face and body tell me otherwise.
In my brain, I feel like I should be like I was “before” — before I knew that life was short and babies died. When everything was fun and exciting. When everybody was always happy and nobody hurt.
In my heart, I feel worn out and used. I’ve birthed new life and held death. I’ve been held by others and I’ve held others in their darkest moments. My heart longs to be 25 again — to match how old my brain thinks I should be.
In my marriage, we are in the comfortable season. We don’t go out partying or make any grand plans. We parent, enjoy life, continue loving each other and realize that our love has carried us through some very hard times. Those hard times claim (depending on the study) 70-90% of marriages within 10 years of losing a child. We are in the minority. We appreciate that.
I’m sure the calendar shows that I’m in the “middle-aged” season of life. I’m 36. Jason will be 45 in 2 weeks. We are fully middle-aged.
Like The Byrds, and The Bible, tell us: To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven.
This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
- Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
- Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
- Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
- Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post. (on Fadra’s sidebar)
- Link up your post on her post.
- Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.