That’s how long it’s been since you took your last breaths in our arms, while the sun streamed through the curtains for the first time in days.
I have to wonder what you would be like now. What would you enjoy?
Baseball, football, tennis or golf?
Scouts, karate, video games?
You would be finishing up 3rd grade. Moving on to 4th. Wow.
Would you be funny? Serious? Sensitive? Rough and tumble?
Mama’s boy or Daddy’s boy?
I can ask questions all day long, but I’ll never know.
What I do know is that you changed me. You changed us.
We are different.
We are better and we are worse.
We’ll never be who we were “before.”
But that’s ok.
I don’t want to be who I was “before” if that means you were never in our lives.
For the 9th birthday post, go here.
For something funny now that you’re probably crying, go here.