The In Between

The In Between

Right now, I’m sitting in the most wonderful place. This place may feel sad for some. It may make some angry. For others, like me, it’s incredibly peaceful and awe-inspiring.

I’m sitting in a room with my Grannie, listening to labored breathing, holding feverish hands, waiting for her last breaths to be taken.

I don’t want her to go. None of us do. We selfishly want to keep her here with us forever. But it’s her time. The stroke she had a few weeks ago was more than her little body could handle.

Hospice is a beautiful place.

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Sitting in this room makes me realize, though, that there is a very special place in this world. It’s the “In Between” and right now I’m sitting in it.

I’m physically sitting here with my mom and Grannie, all of our bodies snuggled safely in this room and cared for by doctors and nurses who only want comfort for the here and now and a peaceful transition to Heaven.

Surrounding us, there are “others” – the ones who protect us all daily. I don’t know who they are. Only Grannie does.

But I do know that I haven’t felt my Charlie’s presence this strongly in a really long time. I know he’s here in this room with us. He’s waiting to jump into his great-Grannie’s arms and be cuddled and rocked until I get there. My Grandaddy is waiting. He’s here, in this room, waiting patiently (like he always has) for her to be ready to reach out her arms to him and walk towards him.

We’re all here – our bodies and souls all swirling together for the last hours in this particular state, waiting for what’s next. Waiting for what’s after the “In Between.”

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  1. Such peace in this post. Beautiful.

  2. Wow! My heart goes out to you for what you are going through, but I am glad that you are able to see some beauty. Thank you for sharing such a powerful piece. {{{hugging you in my heart}}}
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  3. Jana, as difficult as a place this is, it really can be beautiful. Thank you for sharing the beauty!

  4. Thinking of you, Jana. Let me know if there is anything I can do. I will give you a big hug on Thursday!
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  5. What a blessing your presence is adding during this in-between time. I think it is one of the gifts our babies have given us. I wasn’t much of a griever nor was I an appreciator of the death process as I am now. I sat a lot with my brother as he was dying and I enjoyed it so much, I am actually writing an “As I lay dying” plan much like I wrote birth plans for my children. So glad for SOC Sunday and taking my visit one post deeper. Love, love, love….
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